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What my Mama & Lipstick Taught Me

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not anti-social. I love being surrounded with positive people like my small circle of friends and my family. I’m not crazy enough to literally talk to my lipsticks and ask for life or mommy advice. It goes deeper than that. 

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I’m a full-time mom and that is the best role in the world. Very much proud of it. Other people may look down on moms like me as if I’m too lazy not to be working and just be settling with domestic life.

Whatever. They know nothing.

I’ve lost the energy to deal with these folks who seem to be unhappy with their own lives or have a tragic childhood they never recovered that led them to be bitter and sad. Of course I get mad sometimes but my Mama always tells me that anger is very exhausting and unhealthy so I might as well be exhausted with the things that makes my life better.

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My Mama tells me to remain steadfast  & have FAITH. To never doubt the beautiful plans of our Creator for me. Put some lipstick on and continue my life with enthusiasm.

As I don’t live with her anymore, it became challenging for me. But hey, I’m not a child anymore and I have to constantly pick myself up. I gotta do it. Every. Single. Time. My son is watching and I don’t want to frighten him with all the tears and mood swings.

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God is great because He bless me with a beautiful family amidst my personal struggle.

My life is not perfect but my family life is exactly what I’ve been dreaming of. We live in a simple house with our little pebbled garden. Have a kitchen where I practice becoming the Masterchef of our household. (feeling..haha)

Our little son is smart enough to mimic what his dad says and do. He usually outsmarts me with his little antics when he wants to play outside or eat chocolates. My husband on the other hand is like a child. Sweet and ‘makulit’ but very responsible and has the best sense of humor. Did I just hit the jackpot right there?!  🙂

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I’ve been blogging for less than a month and this one-word prompt, “Float” sends different emotions. I was caught off guard. As mushy as it sounds, my eyes are teary.

I do feel like floating sometimes. Don’t know if my career compass is working. I’ve been trying to figure out what I wanted to do with this phase of my life. The struggle is real.

I’ve been contemplating lately. I can’t be a stay-at-home mom all my life right? Not that it is a bad thing but thoughts came rumbling around my head. What if my husband who is our breadwinner got sick or lose his job? What will happen to us? To our child? To our family we pray to have?

They say I’m too paranoid and that I should stop thinking too much. While I agree that I should focus on the positive side, I also want to recognize that it is hard being complacent and dependent. That there are plenty of rooms for improvement.

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There are a lot of full-time moms out there who still finds time to generate an extra income. May it be with their online businesses or by being a virtual assistant. I whole-heatedly admire these women as I experience raising a child on my own without any yaya/nanny. It is both hard and rewarding.

But these moms seem to have super powers to still broaden their horizons. Constantly learning & seeing life with so much hope for their kids. For their family. For their dreams.

How can these women age so gracefully? Please let me know. 🙂

They’re SUPER MOMS just like my MAMA.

Clearly, I’ve a lot of things to learn in this lifetime. You may encounter this lesson a thousand times but do you know what else my mom taught me?

This:

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So, go ahead girl. Rise, put some lipstick on and conquer the world. 🙂

-Khay ❤

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Today’s one-word prompt from the Daily Post: Float

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Ang Pangarap kong Duyan

May mga simpleng  pangarap ako noong bata pa. Una, gusto ko maging teacher o cashier sa department store; pangalawa, magkaroon ng bahay na may terrace/balcony at duyan (swing) na gawa sa rattan.

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Rattan Swing

Noong elementary pa kasi ako at tinatamad magturo ang teacher, pagagawain kami ng activity; ang magdrawing ng dream house. Syempre lagi present ang araw sa pagitan ng dalawang bundok, palayan at puno na nakapaligid sa bahay at ang aking pangarap na duyan sa labas.

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Bahay sketch from  http://how.to-draw.co.uk/

Iba ang buhay sa probinsya. Sariwa ang simoy ng hangin, maganda ang view ng mga bundok at rice fields, masarap at fresh ang mga pagkain at higit sa lahat walang traffic. Chill lang. Hindi nakakainit ng ulo ang ingay ng mundo.

Up to now kahit madami nang nabago sa buhay at sa mga pinapangarap ko, one thing still remains. I still want the simplicity of my dream when I was young. Ang buhay probinsya para sa aming pamilya. Lagi ko nai-imagine na nagaalmusal at nagku-kwentuhan kami ni Chuck tungkol sa kagandahan ko..(joke lang! Syempre ibubully nya ako..as always! Mas masarap siguro ang 3-in-1 coffe kapag ganito ang view..hehe Hindi na kailangan ng electric fan kasi fresh naman ang hangin. Sobra sigurong matutuwa ang anak kong si Riley habang nagbibisikleta dahil malawak na ang playground niya. Nakakakilig isipin. 🙂

Habang ang aking munting pamilya ang inspirasyon ko, ang view na yan naman ang motivation ko. Mahirap man magsimula..pero mas mahirap kapag wala kang nasimulan kasi hindi matatapos yan.

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Hindi naman masama mangarap ng engrande. “Dream Big” as what they say. Tama naman ‘yon..but for me, wala rin masama kung i-achieve mo rin ‘yong mga unfulfilled dreams mo di ba? Wag kang gaya-gaya. Hindi porke’t mansion na ang bahay ng kaibigan mo, maiinggit ka na rin. Gawin mo lang itong inspirasyon to improve yourself. Balikan mo ‘yong mga simpleng bagay na nagpapasaya sayo. Iba man ang ikot at ganap sa universe ngayon, naniniwala ako na your inner core makes you authentic. Take time to listen to that at made-discover mong may purspose ka pala talaga sa buhay.

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Masyado na bang madrama? Nagsimula lang sa duyan, ang dami nang nasabi. Feel na feel ko kasi eh..hehe

Ito ang lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko:

“Malaki man o maliit ang pangarap mo, matutupad lang ito kung may effort at consistency ka. Never give up Mommy. Wag iyakin at mag-lipstick!”

-Khay ❤

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When Mommy is still a Baby

It’s my first time to blog. This is crazy and beautiful all at the same time. Naalala ko pa dati, sobrang hilig kong magsulat sa diary. Puro tungkol naman sa Westlife and A1 ang mga kinukwento ko.LOL

Change has begun ika nga. I need to use my time and technology wisely. You know naman, mahirap mapagiwan ng panahon. Adulting it is. I guess this blog will help me express my thoughts even better. Mahirap din kasi kapag 1 year old baby ang kausap sa bahay..kaya game na ha. Magkkwento na ako.

The best thing that happened to my life is my son, Riley. We had him when I was 26 yeras old..old enough to be a mother as they say. I don’t think I am. Childish kasi ako. I really don’t know how to be a mom because a I’m a little spoiled growing up.

My mother, being a stay-at-home and entrepreneur took care of everything. To the point na highschool na ako, sya pa rin ang gumigising, naghahanda ng almusal at damit ko for school. She believes that my sister and I should focus more on our studies instead of household chores. Pero mahirap din pala kapag masyadong pampered nung bata pa. Nagiging dependent. Talagang everyday, adjustment period.

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Fast forward to present: My husband and I chose to take care of Riley solely. OUr little one was with my mom since birth until 9 months old. We live in a different province and going to our hometown is hard since hectic din ang schedule ng asawa ko. Naiiyak ako nung 1st month ni baby sa amin dahil una wala kaming yaya or kamag-anak na  kasama sa bahay; pangalawa, hindi ako marunong magalaga ng bata. Iyak, tahan, take care of the baby while linis ng konti sa bahay tapos iyak muli. On repeat yan for a month.While daddy is at the office, kami naman magina ang nagkukulitan sa bahay. Maswerte na ako dahil at this point I can be a “full-time mom”. It is a serious responsibility dahil nung nagkaanak ako, saka ko lang nalaman na mahirap pala talagang maging nanay. 

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My son changed my perspective in life. Go with the flow kind of person ako eh. I don’t plan ahead but having a child means thinking of what’s best for them and preparing for it. This is what I learned from my husband. Although I’m still adjusting, I’m thankful for having a supportive spouse..kahit na lagi nya akong binubully. LOL

At the end of the day, I’m an imperfect mom and wife. But I commend myself for always trying and striving to be better. Atleast ngayon, hindi na lang puro prito at saing ang alam kong lutuin..hehe I wanted my son and my children-to-be to look at me as their mom who never gives up.

It is okay to doubt yourself sometime, kasi dun mo rin mache-check kung tama pa ba ang ginagawa mo..pero learn to appreciate the things that you do Mommy. Kahit malaki o maliit mang effort mo dahil sa mata ng iyong anak importante ka. Mahalaga. 🙂

Usap ulit tayo next time at magsasampay muna ako. Mwah!

-Khay ❤